.: welcome to Francisca's webpage :.: So...my whole day...

It was a normal day at work (yup, happy to be back) and totally normal...I mean, almost totally...except that I met some new colleagues...actually, two girls having their industrial training at my workplace. It was a surprise because I hadn't been back there for a long time...I got transfered here and there and finally. Their presence is nevertheless a good thing because it can help lighten our loads since I had some paperworks to finish up and everyone's kinda busy doing something.

Besides that, there are some new surprises that never crossed my mind. Ok, btw, I'm naive.

By the way, I started to write poems again and still didn't think that they are qualified as real poems. I'll post it online on the new section soon but I'll post one here...I use a lot of . Pardon me for my grammar because I'm not an English literature student or a professional poet. I'm a person who likes to write without many rules hehe...freedom of expression muahahaha...*pause* I think my brain stops functioning now ;P

Shadow
I've always wished that I can change my life,
Shaping it into whatever form I wish to see,
But life doesn't always go my way,
My past is my shadow and I'm trying not be afraid of it,
I didn't want to scare myself,
Or run from it,
It's with me but I'll be able to forget it was there,
Cuz it didn't worth as much as looking forward,
But sometimes I can't forgive my past,
And all the mistakes I have ever done,
Knowing that they can't be erased,
Or even be forgotten by me or some others,
but I'll try to carry on,
Forgive others while I learn to forgive myself,
Cuz sometimes it's hard to walk on while looking backward,
And I know nobody's perfect and that includes me,
I'll try to live with my shadow,
Knowing that it's part of me,
Some might keep looking at it,
But it's not what I'm all about.

I wasn't talking about shadow. It's a metaphor. I love using metaphor. Btw, the poem above doesn't really reflect my thinking all the time. It was just written when I thought about some stuffs I did back then...like, years ago or something...things like I hurt someone's feeling and now that person doesn't like me even when I'm not someone who I used to be. It happened but it's not as serious as I wrote. I'm making up part of it hehe.

Come on, I'm one of those people who are blur about many things...especially when it comes to relationship and feelings. I still had no idea why I was so blur at that. That is supposed to be like a human's essential knowledge and I had no idea how to express it. Some said that first-borns are naturally blur at that so it's not really my fault. Blame it on my environment...hehe, I'm kidding, I love my environment and everyone in it.

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